Look like you have a lot of emotion in this relationship, as expected. But as I said, girl with a boyfriend or husband in mainland is very troublesome, and should be avoid if possible.
But I guess my advice is too late. Continue this sinking journey and enjoy every single moment of your time with her. No matter what happen in the future, these sweet memory will always be with you for the rest of your life.
Don't be just 欺文. Most of these girls like more mature man, with 男子氣慨.
Don't cry too much in front of your Bobo.
That's all I can say now.
My C9 is fine. She kept a movie of me swimming and showed that to other men who try to 溝 her, when she was still working in D1. Ha ha ha. She likes sporty man with muscles like me.