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原帖由 messykitkit 於 2008-6-10 03:20 發表
suck each other's soul out of the miserable life in this fucking 21 century
although your write-up shows that you are in a mixed mood, it is a nice reflection of yours and many brothers who are reading this forum.
Instead of encouraging you not to sink, I would say first of all, you should be grateful you have a loving wife and 2 kids that you love and they love you. It is not easy since with possibly close to 20 years of marriage, you might have lost all feel on her (and vice versa) . Therefore, you are not that bad.
Regarding the sex part, try to think this way. What would you expect from it? a pure fxx or a lunchbox experience? It seems that you are also looking for a good fxx but just feel lonely or empty afterwards. Then, think positively about either appreciating the girl you had just tried and thank God, you did it again... Of coures, you will feel hollow since it is a pure fxx, you think you betray your wife and the family, you should NOT blame yourself sinec it is human beings/animal instincts and do not tie yourself to the social/moral vallues that much. The more you blame yourself about this habit, the worse you will feel.
It may not be a good analogy but difficult to find one.. Imagine that you do not have this habit but get another one, buying expensive stereo. You pay 20,000 getting your 1st hi-fi, think it is not enough and trade-in for a set costing you 100,000. After 1/2 year, you think the speaker sucks and pay another 50,000 to buy a new one. After and after, you pay over 1 million dollars buying something that you spend 2 hrs a week... Do you feel lonely after hearing that classical playing on your damn 1 million hi-fi? I think you will. Men at our age are lucky to feel hollow. Imagine if we are all dying from hunger, our stomach will feel hollow instaead. Having said that, try to balance your life with some other hobbies, sports, watching movies, etc. YOu will continue to enjoy the pure fxxk, but may spend less time/$ and less dependent on it. YOu spend your spare energy and time to do something else may quite balance your non-work life..
