Hi brothers...

I have been a CD-rom for long long time.  I use to login as "hyperwings" but somehow I forget my password and can't login anymore.  For almost 4 years I have read many of your stories and I have learnt a lot from you all.  That's very interesting to know how MM-world works as well as how I should mentally prepare myself from getting hurt.  But somehow, I find when love comes, you just can't stop yourself from thinking (or sinking)...  until it hurts.  

Recently I read brother 烈火's story and I am so touched.  I can feel a similar feeling especially for the part that he drove back from his MM's town and back to SZ.  The emptyness is so strong that it can't be discribed easily.  Anyway, I would like to share my story with you here as a memories of my special girl.  The story is gonna be long so I will break it down into parts...

I meet her in a common massage house in SZ in March.  I must admit that she is not the gorgious type but she definitely is an "ice-beauty".  In the room we talk a lot.  She tells me she comes from Wu Nan.  She just break up with her ex for half year.  Without his support, she decides to work in this massage house.  

At that time, who cares where and how.  As long as I can have a good time with a good looking girl, that's worth the time.  And of course...  I have a good time.  I take down her staff number afterward and tell her I will come back in April if not busy (not busy in another massage house)...

O.  Forget to give her a name, say 586.

Time flies, when I try to find 586 again, it's already May.  I ask the captain in massage house and discribe how she looks like.  But still, I cannot find her.

Until one day in June, I receive a call from her.  I meet her in the massage house again.  From there on for 2 months, I think we have developed a different relationship.  As she no longer takes my money everytime we meet each other.  And we have also meet in her apartment instead of the massage house...

In August, she tells me she had my baby...  Surely I am surprise.  Experience tells me we cannot have this baby.  At that time, I even doubt this baby is mine.  So I ask her to destory this little life.  She has an abortion a few days later.

Maybe it's all about guilt, I stay with her whenever possible (six days a week after work, except Sunday...) after the operation.  One week later, another news hits me.  My girlfriend who lives with me gets pregnant...

Thank you for reading my post.  I am sorry brother.  I will hurt her if I post up her picture.

I need to off line now.  I will continue my tale soon.

Bros., thank you for your support and comments.  And now I continue...

My girlfriend who is living with me, let's call her 7w.  I have been living with her for 3 years and we hold a wedding feast in her home town 2 years ago.  Frankly speaking, she is not pretty but she is smart.  She knows I am a playboy and she gives me freedom most of the time.  Our relationship works well throughout these years.  And now we have a baby.  I think I am in her debt to give us a chance and start a family.  So I agree to we should keep this baby.

On the other hand, I am selfish and greedy.  I want to keep my relation with 586.  Althought she knows I am living with a 7w on day one, I choose not to tell her that 7w is having a baby.  And afterall, she is still working in the massage house at that time.  "What can she expect?!" -- Of course finally I regret that thoughts.

[ 本帖最後由 hyperdeath 於 2007-1-23 09:13 AM 編輯 ]

Things seem to run smoothly.  My relationships with 7w and 586 continue.  During that period, I even have a chance to meet 586's family during my business trip in SH.  I think I leave quite a good impression and 586 is happy to see that.

In around end of November, I have to travel away from Asia for 1 week.  Before I leave, 586 asks me what is my plan with her.  I cannot answer her but I promise her I am working on it.

As many brothers may still remember Chinese GA has an operation against many entertainment houses in the end of November.  On the next day, 586 has quit her job.  She SMS me while I am oversea.  From there on, I believe I start to get more serious with 586...

[ 本帖最後由 hyperdeath 於 2007-1-22 10:24 AM 編輯 ]

Brother Rio, thank you for your suggestion.  I use condom all the time when I play.  But for the woman I love, I prefer not to if she also feels the same way.

Brother tmc300.  I agree with you.  My situation is already complicated enough.  Another friend of mine has an even more serious problem because he is a married man.

One week before Christmas eve, 586 tells me she is going to have a tour with her female friends during Christmas.  Sure I do not think she is telling the truth but I choose not to question.

On Christmas eve, I take 7w out for a dinner.  In the restaurant, I find 586 is sitting with another guy 2 tables away.  She finds me almost about the same time.  We look at each other for seconds but it seems like eternal.  At that time, I think we can finish our mistaken relationship without words.

[ 本帖最後由 hyperdeath 於 2007-1-22 11:24 AM 編輯 ]

Although by SMS, 586 agrees we should not see each other again, she still explains she has no feeling towards this guy.  At that time, I am stupid enough to trust everything I hear from her.  And for the following week, I sleep over in her apartment for serval nights without staying home with 7w, who really needs my accompany.

New year eve comes, I go see 586 and ring her door bell, the guy I see in restaurant opens the door...

586 keeps telling me this guy is not who she loves, she only loves me.  She just wants to hang out with someone when I am not around.  Damn it, I am fallen because I choose to trust her...

[ 本帖最後由 hyperdeath 於 2007-1-23 09:15 AM 編輯 ]

Brother Macboy, thanks for reading my post.

7w is not from Wu Nan.  I guess when the feeling hits, it does not matter where this girl comes from.  We will still sink.

PS. Get well soon, millions of nice girls are out there waiting for you.

Instead of new year greetings on that night, I receive SMS from 586 saying she goes to hospital because she is feeling very sick.  It is around 3 in the morning.  586 says she should be ok as the guy is taking care of her.  She refuses to tell me which hospital and turn off the phone afterwards.

I check the map and start my search.  The taxi driver takes me around the city and search each hospital one by one.  After six hours of search, I am exhausted.  But I finally reach her by phone and she appologizes for turning off the phone.

[ 本帖最後由 hyperdeath 於 2007-1-23 10:09 AM 編輯 ]

Brother 烈火, that's why your 9-hour return trip catches me.

Such 4-person relationships keep on going for one more week.  586 repeatedly asks me what will be our future if this goes on.  She says she cannot be number 2 for the rest of her life.  Even this means she will try to accept a guy she does not love.

Without answering to her question.  One evening when I am having dinner with 586, that guy pops up and takes her out from the restaurant.  I am so furious.  Three of us meet at the playground nearby.  I fuck that guy.  586 leaves us behind.  When the fight is done, I call 586.  We goes to a hotel to avoid further encounter with that guy.  I promise her she will be the happiest woman on earth.  She also says she will follow me where ever I go and end this mess of us...

On the next morning, it is rainy and freezing.  My mind cannot stop thinking of her when I drive my way to work.  Then I receive a message from 586...

"昨晚你走了之後,我很失落,我离開了酒店,選擇了他,你可能會覺得我是個很反復的女人,今天我會跟他上廣州, 請你不要再找我,謝謝."

That night, I cry in front of 7w.  I don't know how much she knows.  But one thing I am sure from there on, my promises should be given to this woman in front of me.

[ 本帖最後由 hyperdeath 於 2007-1-23 11:38 AM 編輯 ]

Thank you brother coke818.  I heard something like that before as well.  And I keep reminding myself not to fall into these loopholes.  But as some other brothers just say, also from my opening section...  some time you know you are sinking, but your mind is out of control until you feel it hurts.

I just received a call from 586 today asking me the recipe of some dishes I made for her when we were together.  As if we are still friends.  I think I should put an end to this.

[ 本帖最後由 hyperdeath 於 2007-1-23 03:59 PM 編輯 ]

Brother phead_99, thanks for your blessing.

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原帖由 tmc300 於 2007-1-23 05:22 PM 發表
Why don't you just enjoy having sex with 586 even though she is sleeping with another guy.  You are also sleeping with 7W.  So, don't try to think of exclusive relationship with 586.  Think of it a ...

Brother tmc300.  Nice try.  You want to see a ship sinks to the seafloor?

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原帖由 vupoint 於 2007-1-24 05:25 AM 發表
I like to sympathize for your feeling and at the same time to congratulate you on the awakening of your life. Sometimes loss is not lost but gain. Think positive......brother.

Thank you Brother vupoint.  I will take your advice.

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原帖由 dennisp 於 2007-1-24 12:00 PM 發表


You already have a fantastic woman: 7w. Count your blessings and treat her well.  

p.s. does 7w know you sleep over at 586? What kind of excuse did you use for not going home at night? I am cu ...

Thank you Brother dennisp.  7w is a good wife with wisdom.

For the excuse...If you desperately want to stay out for several nights, you can become very imaginative.  I use the simple ones which are related to work.  I think many brothers here can give you good examples which are better than mine.

[ 本帖最後由 hyperdeath 於 2007-1-24 01:33 PM 編輯 ]

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原帖由 onemanjourney 於 2007-1-30 14:28 發表
Dear friend, just think for her and u'll understand why she chose this.

You are engaged, u cannot give her any long term promise. No matter how good u ar in compare with that guy, u cannot give  ...

Brother OMJ, thank you for your sharing.  I agree the part you have said about the reality of marriage in China.  But yet, every woman is different, I am not sure if all women response the same in a given situation.  I think you have more knowledge in women than I do.

Afterall, it is a story about sinking.

BTW, I really want to thank all brothers for your comments and support.  It is hard (almost impossible) to say no more playing and sinking in the future, but I learn that 7w is really the "dockyard" for me.

[ 本帖最後由 hyperdeath 於 2007-1-31 11:53 編輯 ]

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原帖由 tennisman 於 2007-1-31 12:38 發表
It's good that you didn't marry 7w, otherwise the situation will be so complicated. Be a man, do something to protect your baby at least.

Brother tennisman, I don't get what you mean.  Is now 7w having my baby and I plan to spend my life with her.  If you are referring to 586, then yes, I think I am doing what you are suggesting.

[ 本帖最後由 hyperdeath 於 2007-1-31 13:44 編輯 ]