The middle age crisis, been there done that. I know exactly what you are going through.  My advice, just follow your heart. I am married with a working girl but I am also "in love" with another one right now.  The "love" feeling, whether it's real or not, is what we are trying to feel or after isn't it?  I think we all enjoy哲磨自己。  To have some feeling is better not to have any feeling at all. What's good if everyday you are 行尸走肉? sigh...

couldn't agree more but it's easier said than done.  i will try my best and just be the jackass right from the beginning...